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Let In, Let Down
04:57
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So this is how this has to end?
I thought you'd always be my friend
You took the better parts of me
(Long nights of waiting by the phone)
Cold silence never cut so deep
(I guess I'm better off alone)
You gave me your word when I said I would fall
(And all that I needed was anything at all)
I let you in, you let me down (down)
I scream and you don't make a sound (sound)
I let you in, you let me down (down)
Now all I want is just to know
How you could ever let this go
I'm left with all that's said and done
(Those empty words are all the same)
I should've known what you'd become
(Another year washed down the drain)
The scars on my chest from what you can't undo
(But what hurts me the most is I can't get over you)
So this is how this has to end
I thought you'd always be my friend
But I guess you don't and I can't forget
How everything was just a mess
When you were here, I couldn't breathe
I just kept drowning underneath
Why did you let me go?
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Because of You
03:55
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I know that you don't understand what I meant
When I said that I needed space
It couldn't be simple with you it just had to be
More than it was really worth
And all those days I said I'd never leave your side
I wish that I could take them all away
Whoa, everybody knows
That I'm crazy for loving you
And I know that I'm going nowhere fast
I just make it through
And it's all because of you
I can't bring myself to come home anymore
I just can't bear to see your face
It's all just a game of pretend that I play with you
Why can't we just let this go?
And all those days I said I'd always be with you
I can't believe I ever felt that way
I burned every picture that we were in together
They just made me sick
And now your my reminder that things won't last forever
And now I know this is it
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Growing Up
04:42
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I'm done with giving up on myself
I'm through with settling for second best
When there's no one left to fight this but me
And I won't let it under my skin
These old familiar feelings won't do me in
It won't be the end of everything
And it's a long road, it's not black and white
It's not wrong or right, but it's worth the fight
I'm growing up and I'm getting better
At the things I do, fighting back the pressure
Now I'm letting go and I'm breathing slower
For the first time in so long that I can remember
I left home with thoughts I'd rather forget
So hard to take control of all this mess
Inside my own head it's all I can see
I said "No!" to everything I regret
All those old memories, 'cause the cuts and scars
Make us who we are but not who we will be
And it's a long road, it's not black and white
It's not wrong or right, but it's worth the fight
It’s not so steady level, I still keep fighting devils
And I don’t think I deserve it, to tell myself I’m worth it
BUt I fight against the weather, each day gets so much better
I’m not ready to give in, I’m not fucking giving in
No I’m not giving in
I won’t let this in, this is not the end
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It's hard for me to tell you this
It's harder still to tell myself
I can't control what once I did
And darker rooms are all I've left
I'm fighting back against my mind
And trying to listen to my heart
But my body's sewn into the seams
And I'm tearing through the weakest parts
And oh I've been down this road before
But oh this time it feels like I'm on my own
It's hard for me to tell you this
But I don't think I can be the same
Like the life we dreamed of way back when
All the plans we had to have it made
But I'm trying harder every day
To make some sense of all this mess
It's a catacombs of yesterdays
Of all the things I've done and said
And oh I've been down this road before
But oh this time it feels like I'm on my own
It's the darkness in my head
It's these chains weighed down like lead
And it's everything I wish I could just
Make myself forget
Is it a part of me, or is it everything?
Please God let it be something
I can't break free
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Ed Allison York, Pennsylvania
Music from a semi-tortured mind. I'm a pop punk/alternative artist that blends pop punk and alternative with classic emo and
pop sensibilities.
After years of writing songs and discovering what I wanted to say, in Sept 2018, I released my first entirely solo EP, Changes, a collection of songs from that year of my life. Songs about broken hearts, growing up, losing friends, and losing sanity.
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